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This course load might be the death of me honestly. 23 assignments due this Sunday? Seriously? It's already been hard enough taking care of my health while balancing this much work, while still alotting myself a little time to draw a bit and code. My therapist told me that drawing and coding is a non-negotiable need for myself so I am trying to still update things and squash bugs here and there.

To be quite honest with you I feel like absolute shit. I have like MAYBE a handful of friends + mutuals who I enjoy talking to and catching up with, but when you're going through chronic illness, terminal illness, weight loss, friend loss, and college work all at once... it becomes painfully evident that nobody wants to deal with all that. Or yet, nobody knows how... to deal with all of that, so most just simply don't. I want to reach out, yet I don't know what to say. I wish others knew how difficult existing is for me. I wish more people checked on me.

I've been alternating between coding and drawing lately, in order to keep my mind busy and fresh. Although it's a little stressful now juggling a different type of coding all together for my coursework, but alas I wanted to go into healthcare... (ﾉ_ヽ)

I did my nails today, they're mahjong tiles lol since I'm currently fixated on Mahjinn and her lore (the new character I finished recently). I really had a lot of fun designing and animating her, now it's time for me to work up a concept for her father. I've already got some good iDiAs brewing <44

I'll have to reference how some other netizens display galleries, as I think my gallery page should be a little more in-depth, and should be wider and have more of my portfolio present. That might be a project I'll tackle later this season, as I've got bigger fish to fry right now...

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